Yeah, to fill you up on the previous entry. Don't worry im fine already. was just up to my brim earlier on. :) So what contributed to the stress? Well.. basically it was work load and insecurities cum other stuff.

Just came to me again and again that often it is not about my planning, planning can seriously fail i tell you, extremely ahhaa.. but the process of it and how i trust God enuff to allow it to work. Working in a secular sector made me wonder, how do i link it than. It can be tough i must say, cos the people i work with will not trust that. People look at end results and outcomes, who cares often about the process. Thus, i laid everything onto how well i did, i was afraid that i wouldnt do well, thus felt insecure. I wasnt sure about myself, i felt like maybe i just wasn't up to it, im just in the wrong job.

but now as i think back what happen today, i thank God for it. that if it didnt happen, i may not realise. Circumstances may change unexpected, things may be against you, but God my trust is in You. You are my security. i may need to plan due to work, i may meet ppl that i have difficulties to work with, and im not saying we shouldn't plan at all, but God i trust that you will teach me how and you will guide me, so my worth is in you :)