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well well.. work life been so far so good.. beside meeting a few things that is not so nice haha... but im still enjoying it :) so fun..

I came across this entry of my frend and in reply to my thoughts..

Relationship shouldn’t be said like a game. Relationship is something need to be cherish. Ppl walk in and out of out lives, some leave really sweet memories some not so nice.

BGR isn’t a game. It is when 2 come together and decide to compromise their lifestyle to learn how to give and take. Though in the modern world, people just get into one so casually. They can get together today and the next they broke up, just like changing clothes but I dun agree with such a lifestyle. People are getting more and more realistic and it is labeled as girls. Girls want to be prettier, thinner and etc etc… We live in a fallen world where all this become a must. I feel that being prettier and such is ok but dun take it to an extreme, as seem we are all beautiful in His eyes, so it is perfectly fine trying to doll urself up but dun take it that it is a must and you enter a relationship based on looks.

20 yrs down the road the person is old le… the look is gone, but it is the inner that stay. The character that reflect the inner beauty. =)

So serious hor my topic.. hahah I suddenly lost my train of thoughts le.. :P so I shall end here…

You will know which blog is this cos I know you might be reading this hahaa… but yeah just my thoughts ya =) okeie.. tataz ppl.

thoughts..

Had lunch at Muthu Curry today. Hehee… My colleague us as a Deepavali lunch ahaa… food was nice except I find the lime juice not so fantastic ahhaa.. and the naan if put butter will be nicer :P

Well well… had a long journey of mrt cum bus ride back with aunt A. The rest seem to leave liao ahhaa.. oppss.. yeah lo… took 74 and I pass by his place. Memories of the past flooded back. When we used to take that bus from AMK to his place after he ended school almost everyday. Somehow the place seem so distance and alien. That somethings changes already. the journey on the bus was quite interesting. Chatted with aunt A and also with the memories of the past. Thinking back of the thought I used to have while I pass by certain places which I nv told him and now thinking about those and also some other stuff haha.

Think left with me is just memories ba.. sweet memories and some bitter ones.. but life have to move on : )

Today gonna leave work late, later got a meeting to attend.. oh my im so zzpy and my contact lens is irritating me..arghzz…

Maybe I shall eat Maggie mee tonite haha… yeah…so random my entry.. haha..tataz

Zzpy..

Im so sleepy, im like falling asleep anytime hahaa.. :P this is bad, this few day like very lerthargic.. think i falling sick soon.. hahaa...


I need a new mattress...!! and i have been wanting a new mattress since ages ago that i dun even remember since when.. haha.. i dun deny that my mattress is so soft and comfortable that it is proven instant falling asleep but i think not good for my back la.. i hope after i change my mattress i will stil lget to zz as easy as now :P

Yeah its gonna be the holiday soon... got break :) yahooO!!! going out with a few frends hahaa.. to enjoy ba i guess.. hahaa.. i going on a date with S.. hahaa... we are choosing between sentosa, east coast park or pasir ris to the beach hahaa... i hope i wun get sun burn.. but well this 'gu niang' here need to start getting to the sun and enjoy my active life again lah ahaa... wat we are going to do not sure.. probably cycling or roller blading or smthing rubbish,.. haha yah lo..

this week gonna be on duty.. been sometime since i do.. i hope i dun forget hahaa... as usual the blurness of mine haha... okie la... gtg le... :P

Hey all,
Im back again. Work been good, so far so gd.. hehe and im enjoying myself. Been busy with coordinating the coming Xmas Party and some minor activity and I realize enjoy doing it hahaa… and is really like when im free im super free, if not im super busy ahhaa… bad rite. Anyway I thank God for being with me this one week. He has been really faithful. Though I dun exactly like feel Him and I dun really feel like talking to Him, I tried yah.. hahaa.. and guess wat he slowly reveal Himself to me and allowing myself to know more about myself. Get wat I mean??

Anyway I really thank Him.. I hope what im feeling now is not momentary cos I don’t want it to be momentary. Just want to share how good He has been, to some of you u all might not know that im very scared to meet people, especially people who are older?? Haha… can believe not? I will freak out ok, just that properly I dun show as much la… well well.. day by day during this week, I dunno why I suddenly could smile and feel relief when I meet people, and the people I meet are very nice. I could strike conversation with my volunteers and speak confidently, even though got sometime I still scare la.. I duno how to describe but ya hhahaa…

That about all for my sharing on how God been faithful.. hehee… of cos still got other things la..

Anyway I went to watch European Gigolo, I tell you it is a total unedifying show to watch. And I didn’t even realize what was the content of it until I watch it. Went with my frends, they were telling me comedy so I was like ok lo.. and who knoe well well.. CRAPNESS hahaa… though the show at some point is quite funny and at the end they talking about what a woman wan in love, she wants some one who can listen to her a stuff and I agree on that part, but beside that its horrible. Totally unedifying :P yeah… oki that all for my entry : )

morning..

Im bored. So im here again :P What should I blog today no ‘ling gan’

Work today is quite slow. Yesterday when I tot I will be super free to blog, in the end I was occupied with things to do. Hahaa.. anyone misses my entry?

Mei, hugs k.. sorry cant go with you today, I really want to go with you, like we did last yr… hugs tite… jie is here k.. 24hr hotline rem

Kor, thanks for spurring me on haha..heh

Many times in life we face many things. Some expected some unexpected. To some it bring joy to some it brings sadness. But God is there through this time. He promise that He will be around. The song “still’, when the oceans rise and thunders road, I will soar with you above the storm, Father u are king over the flood, I will be still know u are God.

So indeed, God let this be my prayer, that I want to be still before you. God let this week be a change, just break me and mold me.. someone once told me, it is until I deny my self and just throw myself to God and not just lean on Him, than I will meet Him. So God.. hELP! :)

Im back..

Im back with my blogging. For those 'active' reader, i guess by now u must have realise that i have been blogging alot recently. Paiseh ah if it irritates you to read, u can stop reading now.

Recently at work, im always hook on the net, thus always have something to write hahaa... but entry are all quite random. :P

I remember some time ago last yr mei wrote me and email. very touching de, one that made me drop tears hahaa.. i wonder if she remember it. I was very tired then, very very.. and than all was bleak and somehow she found out because someone tel her. She wrote me an email.. and that was the time i suddenly got a little 'life' back.. but God was indeed gracious. really.. he brought be back after i slept, in my dreams i found joy :)

Sometimes i wonder whether if it was gd to always sleep and wake up and feel good. I have no idea whether it has been masked or wat.. but i do know and agree that when they say u lose God u lose ur life... i agree with that.. because i know each time when i drift from Him, i lose myself.. yeah lo.. haha tat all for now :P

Mei i love you very much and i still do... hope u love me as much too..
Thanks kor for coming to my life to listen to me and not giving up too.. but i still need a frend to love.. a girl.. :) yeah love you too kor..

hahah so mushy.. oh my... goosebump le.. hahaa... taka: dun say i les ah... see now i got say mushy things to guy too ahhaa.. :P

Morning..

morning everyone.. im first at work... for the first time i had to learn to open tha gate and disarm the alarm.. hehe i hope i did it correctly haha.. orelse next u will see the police :P

I was surprise lo that no one was here.. hahaa... yeah lo.. jsut wanted to write something cos very free la hahaa.. oppss.. oki i go find things to do le :P tyatazz..

Out..

Yeah took timeoff yesterday to go out.. supposely to go swimming with S but end up nv.. oh no... we blame it on rain hahaa.. but i guess it is pure laziness la.. BADBAD!!

End up we ate 'Da pai dang' at TP, i tell u that branch not nice to eat so do rem not to go there hahaa... i think chinatown better. Than we walk around and decided to go orchard. S wanted to buy heels for some wedding dinner, and guess wat we walk from orchard to dhoby gaut in the end nv buy anything at all.. hahaa.. waste my time.. and we were so bloatted from the 'da pai dang' but we had to eat dinner already cos it was late and we had to go home.. :P

The laksa she ate was horrible, it was sweet.. can u imagine sweet laksa?? and i ate my 'dong fen' the person didnt under 'tang hoon' hahaa... and she tot i order 'da tou' so she was like huh.. :P

yeah... S and me was talking crap, and sharing about some stuff. we were kind of frank to each other la.. but i guess its good. She has mature alot already, very very much and it is for the better. Im impressed.. but still i see this wall i build towards her somehow... i would like it to break down la.. God help me.. she is indeed a frend that is worth :)

footprints

People walk in and out of our lives. Some leave sweet memories, some leave painful ones. It always boils down to whether u want to let it affect you. Some might think that it is so fake to make decision and choose to not let it affect you. Some find that this is better or else we will always leave in our past.

I choose both. At times my emotions runs over me, at times I made choices. I dislike decision in fact as sometimes it is just so horrible to make one. I guess it is a growing process that everyone face it.

Some choose to feel and go into depression, some choose to block out memories and some just simply cant decide. Human are just so interesting at times. We never know what really on one’s mind, I remembered sometime ago there was this show “what women really wants”, in the show, this guy manage to somehow wake up and read people mind. I remembered at that point of time I wanted to just have that too, but think about it.. I think it will be scary. As I will finally see through man thought and in a sense it has intrude into someone privacy haha..

Oh my, im so impressed by my English. Though of course much grammatical error and if there such thing called ‘broken english’. It just so unlike my usual style huh..

Comment comment!! Which one do you all prefer?

Actually my entry quite jumbled up rite hahaa.. paiseh la :P okie.. tat all for now..

staying pure

I suddenly have some thoughts for this particular topic.

In the current trend and current culture of youth, sex becomes a very open issue. People get together just for fun, for one-night stand or even longer. The issue of staying pure till your married seem no longer one.

There are some girls who really don’t mind, some girls who really mind of such issue. Those who might have mind, as the days pass and as the culture changes, they have been brainwash into the thinking it is ok.

Some get into relationship thinking that it will last. And when the other party ask for ‘that’ they agreed. Some might be forced into. But in the end the relationship was broken. Guilt, hurt and anger might arise.

In my personal point of view, I really feel for these people in the category of being force into. But at the end of the day, they have to bear their own consequences and be scarred after the incident.

Hmm.. I suddenly lost my trend of thoughts.. well well.. sound so serious rite, out of my usual blog. Ok la.. that’s all for now :P

zzz..

Im so sleepy and im falling to zz le.. jia lart.. I dunno why.. I zz quite early last ntie compared to the usual but dunno why. Im like so bored now at work duno wat to do. Am waiting for my frend who is volunteering his service to do webby do design the layout first. I really hope he will pass to me by today, or else Im gonna rot lo.. ahaha

Few ways to stay awake at work:
- slap yourself
- drink water
- stretch
- blog
Few ways to fall asleep gracefully at work:
- read something about your work, pose and act as if your reading
- just sleep

hahah sound crap rite.. im bored la.. help hahaa.. :P once again, I appeal for volunteers who are interested to help do website for a family service centre to contact me :)

hmm… just wanna thank korkor for continuing to try to break thru the walls I built. Well.. yeah lo..

Today gonna be the last paper for a few of my frends… yeah CELEBRATION huh.. hahaa u deserve it after the exams yah.. enjoy urself :)

lots of feeling

I finally slowly get to understand why when I was younger, people who are older than me told me to enjoy my school life. And people who are working always look back and say they prefer studying though studying have exams. As u work it is so different. No matter how young or old are you, u have to think. Even how mature or immature you may be u dun have a choice. You are force to grow up and every human being on earth have to face this in their life. No matter even at work or where, as long as there is people. People will strive for the better, do ways and means to get to the top and even if the means of losing ur integrity.

I just dun get it and I simply dislike it. The joy on their face after getting what they want. The look on their eyes it just so weird. Friendship becomes fake never real. Friend that use to be urs slowly leave you. Thus people walk in and out of your life..

Haha.. my entry sound so weird huh.. I also dunno why I suddenly type these when I was suppose to blog something else.

Well. Work have been so far so good. I’m looking forward to each challenge I face though Im really so scared of presentation. Im just forced I dun have the choice. I need a miracle oh my.. cos I simply cant present. People talk 5min I talk 1 min and full stop. How to talk, I really need to improve my talking lo.. I face this problem with my cell too.. someone I just run out of things to talk to them.. and well I dunno if they ever care to really bother hahaa..
Proper English need to be spoken, posture need to be good..thats they thing I really need to learn. Somehow I lost my confidence in a sense. I still rem when I was having orientation for my poly, that was the period when I was so confident, I could just do it.. than one day I suddenly realize I lost it…

Oh my… im simply too bored so im blogging..actually now I think back actually I have many things to do. I always tot I finish reading the things I need to, but well just now it suddenly occur to me that I I have a lot of things I didn’t knoe. I just know it superficially and I have never tot that there was more to it,, I need to really think more detailly.(if there is such a word) hahaa.. yeah lo..

Seem like a long entry ya.. anyone bored?? U can stop reading now k.. hahaa..cos simply im just crapping cos I got too much time, and I suddenly have a lot of things to write u see haaa…
Oh yah dear.. I love you.. I really do hahaa.. thanks for the colouring book u gave me.. the words are touching.. u have assured me that u still love me just that u dun show it like we did last time. For those who are reading it.. dun think that im attached cos im not.. im referring it to this person I know hahaa.. and it is for me to know and for u to find out.. :P

Enuff of my super long entry la I think.. hhaa tat all for now :P

Work was interesting i guess today... finally the taste of serious working life again hahaa... well well.. wat to do.. i have to grow up even if i dun wan to.. oh my make me sound so old hahaa... have many many things to read, and some follow up of whatever ppl who pass down to me... headache ah... so jia lart rite, this lady here so fast stress le.. bad bad!! any one who wanna volunteer to help me to webpage design?? HELP!! hahaa..

Went for cg today, kingdom ushers bought 2 cakes in the end oh my.. so in the end i had to bring home one of the cakes hahaa.. went for K-ok last nite too.. so late than come home, phew parents nv scold.. thanks to a few of my frends i have new clock. (WAIT!!) i'm not 'pandan' so dun tell me about the 'song zhong' thing k.. i cant be bothered.. haha but well my frends quite 'pandan' la, so in the end to so called ward off the bad luck i have to give them some monetary in exchange.. hahaa


My new clock :P Suppose to be Garfield but well well.. :P

A board full of birthday well-wishes from kingdom ushers :)

Yup... so that all for tonite.. :) weee.e.. gotta work tomorrow.. though stress but im looking forward to it though.. contradicting huh :P

my day..

finally updated my blog hahaa... well well some fotos for u all to view... i finally ended with my career at the SCC. i miss them le.. they very cute hehee, give me some cards and prezzie so sweet of them. hehee... :P

yeah.. had my birthday off today so nice rite.. :P today spent almost 5hrs fixing this beloved computer of mine haha bang wall.. yeah i got bluetooth le as my birthday gift from shifu...hehee.. so now watever fotos u see is from my fone haha...yeah :P

thanks shifu for repairing my computer.. than met kor too.. thanks kor for the cake haha :P yeah lo.. and than we went 'shopping' kor nearly bang wall ahhaa... *shy* la..

okiez la... takashi had this on his blog: "Anger is Depression with enthusiam..." hey cheery..and hmm interesting statement.. i always hear is "Depression is anger turn inwards" nv hear this though.. but well.. sound so chimology... cheery k... It takes 2 to clap and communication is the key. at times is jsut seem so tough but yeah lo.. :) okiez... shall end my entry here today.. nitey :P

Note:Arghz.. the foto refuse to be uploaded except one.. but this blur sotong as usual did something in blurness again... i posted this entry in my cg blog and than cannot copy over.. i give up... if u wanna see the other fotos .. go to http://www.glow-cg.blogspot.com/